Wreckage of the Church

I am committed to this no matter where I'm at in life. I'm committed to making this a reality simply because I want to show up on Sunday morning and listen to some fresh new double bass patterns and chugs. Really I feel like it takes more talent than C, D, G, Em on repeat. I've always had a hard time keeping friends because we fight about everything or the guitarists start arguing over how gay a rift sounds. After awhile I just quit trying to find a band and became a one man band by the name Immortal by Grace. Where I am playing all the instruments and singing. I just remember how much bullying my friends and I had to deal with at church. Valley Bible Fellowship was very difficult for us to call our home church because all the student body leadership were bent on put downs and acting stuck up all the time. One day I invite my friends to church and they confronted me that they no longer wanted to attend because they were tired of the way our peers would treat us, and the leadership really couldn't do anything about it when we brought it up to the pastors. The part that hurt the most was seeing the pastors repeatedly accept the mockers for leadership positions over us growing up. The pastors put these guys on a pedestal because of their parents success in business. Even the family that introduced me to the church eventually left. I stayed attending Valley Bible Fellowship on and off for 20+ years before I decided to attend different churches. I attended faithfully for 5 years and I just didn't feel like I was making a difference. They developed a ministry that almost in the direction of the MXC. Valley Bible opened a concert venue called Station 3:16 and had a coffee shop. Many awesome drummers reinvented rock worship and eventually they closed and put a building on campus called Station 3:16 where the music died and it became just another stage for church events. I also remember the first time I heard double bass worship in our Jr High group it was from a band Called Crimson Staind Nails and it was the best worship I ever heard. We had Johnny Come Lately play also and the drummer eventually became the drummer for Third Day. It was the greatest time for revolutionizing worship. Our Jr high group was cancelled abruptly when the pastor shut it down after complaints of girls getting to involved with the boys. I had a pretty amazing Bible study through single's group at Valley Bible Fellowship and my Bible teacher from Valley High allowed me to be on the list for home group bible studies. It came to abrupt halt after my Bible teacher was fired for not being married to his girlfriend. I was thrown off the home group list and told to join a bible study for a year before I could get my name back on the list. I was very upset. I tried to attend another home group which was teaching the Bible to me but didn't even believe in the gifts of the Holy Spirit, and I couldn't allow someone to speak into my life that just didn't accept the baptism of the Holy Spirit as part of the process. It was to draining especially because my Bible study was pursuing sanctification and walking in the Spirit practicing prophecy. We were forced to take a major 20 steps backwards and for an entire year we couldn't discuss breaking off witchcraft and walking in the prophetic.